I have wanted to start a blog for FOREVER, well, at least since graduating college in 2007…which often feels like forever ago. Nearly 11 years to the day. How did that even happen?? Look at that blond hair – wowzers!
Anyway, I used to talk about it with my husband all the time. I knew I wanted it to center around creativity and crafting. (Crafting was the cool term before Do-It-Yourself became such a catch phrase.) This is the first (yes, you read that right- first) craft room my husband built me for our 5 year wedding anniversary- he’s a gem!
I pretty much live and breathe DIY (check out my About Me page for the full story), but I could never quite get my blog off the ground.
I could tell you all kinds of fancy reasons as to why it never happened- I was busy building my career (I’m the Director of Quality and Process Development for an aerospace and defense manufacturer- this is my “professional” picture for an industry magazine I’m going to be featured in later this year),
I was busy building my marriage (it’ll be 10 years next year…that’s us below, pre-kids and newlyweds),
I was busy building my family (those cuties are my two beautiful daughters ages 2 and 6 months), and on and on.
I was doing all of those amazing things, but to use those as reasons why I didn’t start a blog so long ago would be a smoke screen. The real reason I didn’t start was fear…fear of putting myself out there, fear of people not liking what I had to say, fear of failure and mostly, fear that it wouldn’t be perfect. You see, I’m a perfectionist- a big one! My picture and the words, “Exhibit A” should be printed next to Type A Personality in the dictionary. When I was in school, my Dad used to tell people that I would write a 20 page report just to go from an A to an A+. (Disclaimer: I never actually did that, but I definitely would have if the option had ever been offered. 😉) So, instead of just starting, I put it off while I began to carefully craft the perfect plan for creating the perfect blog. That’s another obsession I have- planning.
Now, all this perfectionism and planning makes me really really good at my job. In the aerospace and defense field, particularly as a quality director, those personality traits are invaluable. You have to be able to see the potential problems in everything and plan accordingly. You have to have an incredible eye for detail and strive for a perfect product every time. But, in the rest of life, perfectionism and extreme planning can be a challenge.
So, there I was, two weeks ago, standing in my kitchen going on and on about how I want to start a blog for the umpteenth time in our marriage and my sweet supportive encouraging husband finally called me out.
“You know what your problem is,” he asked (in a much more loving voice than is coming across through print), “you just need to commit.”
“You know what your problem is…you just need to commit.”
I swear, people, it was just as cliché as it sounds- his words hit me like a bolt of lightning. He was right (no one tell him that, okay, we don’t want to start that trend- hehe).
But, I really did have a problem committing. I realized I was afraid. I had been successful at a lot in life (not everything and it did take a lot of hard work), but mostly, the “plans” I made had come to fruition and I was afraid that this big thing I wanted to do for so long, this big thing that was such a passion of mine was never going to be as perfect as I imagined. Right there, standing in my kitchen, his words stinging me like a jellyfish, I made the commitment to start a blog and publish my first post by this Sunday, May 6th. Yay me! Yay committing! Haha
And, here I am, coming in under the gun 2 days in advance, finally taking the first step I should’ve taken 10 years ago. I don’t know where this first step will lead. I just know I’m proud as heck that I finally had the guts to take it and I hope you’ll come along with me on this journey into the unknown.
I can’t promise perfect posts with perfect grammar and perfect spelling or even perfect projects that come out perfect the first time. But, what I can promise, is a lot of ideas, a lot of fun, a lot (and I mean A LOT) of paint and hopefully a lot of laughs too.
Thanks for reading! Please feel free to comment below. I’d love to hear about all those first steps you’ve already taken or are considering taking- the easy ones, the hard ones and everything in between. I’ll be thinking of you and cheering you on all the way!